PREGNANCY AFTER MISCARRIAGE
Pregnancy after miscarriage is extremely frightening. While I wish I didn’t have the experience of miscarrying a baby I did and so have many women around the globe. It is a pain that is unimaginable for the human mind and body to completely process. I actually had no idea I had suffered a miscarriage until I went to the doctor for an ultrasound, and there was no heartbeat which resulted in dilation and curettage. While I was blessed to conceive, fully carry, and give birth to two beautiful, healthy children I’ll never forget what would have been my firstborn baby, my angel. Aja Naomi King an actress from ABC’s How To Get Away with Murder is pregnant after experiencing two. miscarriages. It is so exhilarating when you are blessed with a rainbow baby. Rainbow baby is a term referring to having a healthy baby (rainbow) after losing a baby (storm).
King is 36 years old and expecting a baby girl. She encourages others to acknowledge their pain and loss for what it is instead of minimizing it because you feel like others have had far more worst experiences. The loss of a pregnancy stays with you forever. King shares how this pregnancy has various emotions including fear and disbelief. Which is totally normal for a woman who has experienced a prior miscarriage. Some women are hesitant to even try to conceive again.
I’m rooting for Aja King, and I admire her courage to share her story and her tenacious spirit of hope. It’s far from easy, yet it can be done. King wrote “I really just want to say that if you’ve gone through this or are going through this, you don’t have to carry the weight alone. And for some (, I won’t attempt to speak for everyone) it can be freeing. So I take this piece of freedom and hope for someone else it allows them to feel a little less alone.”I encourage women who have experienced loss due to miscarriage, infant loss, stillbirth, or neonatal death to heal and grieve for as long you need to, there’s no timeline, and everyone processes loss differently.
Below is a poem I wrote after my miscarriage which was a part of my grieving process.
Title: Inside of Me
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
Created from the intense passion of two busy bees.
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
Birthdate in the spring on day three.
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
That beautiful day I never got to see.
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
No flowers, no showers, and no more mommy-to-be.
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
For my face was filled with glee until there was no heartbeat visible to see.
I have a beautiful baby growing inside of me.
This pain hurt and agony I couldn't believe.
I had a beautiful baby growing inside of me!
To read other poems I’ve written checkout my books of poetry Book 1 and Book 2